latley

lately things are going from been good to been bad and neither of us can help it, were not setting out to annoy one another its just turning out that way, constantly misunderstanding each other and taken our shitty little moods out on each other and to us both its not fair, things stupid things that shouldn matter seem to matter, we need a break or at least a stop watch just to pause time and just rest with each other, feelings of been pushed away are setting in and its probably just paranoia but for the life of me i really hope it is just paranoia because what i have now i cherish and if it was to leave me now it would cripple me, things need to change and i dont know how to word it but if things keep going the way they are i dont know what the turn out will be, rite now i feel slightly depressed and its stupid i shouldn feel like this im meant to be the one thats not feeling like this im meant to be putting my arms around her and reassuring her that everything is going to be ok because it is, every little thing is going to be ok all this panic and worry has to stop on both ends or its going to rip us apart and thats not what i want to happen, i would do absolutely anything on earth for the people i have in my life now, my gorgeous girlfriend who i love more than anything in this world and a beautiful little son who is going to have me as a role model as he grows up ( god help him ),....time is the best medicine apparently so lets just give everything some time and see how it all plays out, ciara and lee i love you both so much and no matter how hot headed i can get just remember at the end of the day i love you both and will always do right by yous no matter what!!!,.. much love, Gerard!